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I have a bad habit of worrying of what the future may bring, bad in the sense that I trouble myself way too much about it. Lately I've been trying to focus more on the journey rather than the destination in hopes to get more out of my time alive.

In our day and age time flies by much faster, the world has become smaller and things got more complicated. Amidst the hustle and bustle of daily routines I admire the hand full of people who find the time and discipline to do what they love doing apart from work. For most, handling a day job is a paramount undertaking on a daily basis, since most of us aren't lucky enough to have our dream jobs. I guess those people who can accomplish more than more are the ones who are driven and know exactly what they want in life, which is why I admire them. I know what I want in life but my determination to move forward is often hampered by my uncertainty in most cases if not all.

I've been working out in my room for almost 4 years now, it has help keep my sanity in tact. It's one of the things that I love doing which I still do up to this day. I hope I can do the same thing with the other things I want to accomplish in life unaffected by my worldly concerns... So when my time comes I won't have any regrets.

Been watching the news lately and all I can say is I'm so fucking disgusted! Not by the sky rocketing prices of commodities but by the reactions from the new Reproductive Health Bill. The religions sectors are against it and even stooped to threatening the politicians supporting the bill; saying that they wont be given Communion and that their followers will be instructed not to vote for the said politicians. Who the fuck do they think they are! In the first place it is not their place nor anyone else' for that matter to tell someone who to vote for office. It is the responsibility of every Filipino to elect the leaders of our country and shouldn't be dictated by anyone or anything. Also the religious sector has no business in the affairs of the state.

They say that the only method that should be used is the natural method. But I have yet to see them encourage it, hold seminars regarding it to educate the masses. They say all life is sacred which i think is a bunch of bullshit. Don't tell me that these so called people of god haven't killed insects or rodents. Over population is not the cause of the current state of the country they say... and yes you guessed it! the government or should i say the current administration is the cause... not those lazy mother fuckers who complain all day.

Other sectors are jumping on the anti-government sentiment as well especially with the State Of the Nation Address coming. One thing caught my ear which went something like: the reason behind the hard life in recent months is because of the government particularly the ones in power. Yeah I know the government has its own problems and is probably fucked up beyond repair, but most of the people saying such things are also in government aspiring for a position. These mother fuckers are just sending a message to the people that it is never your fucking fault you are poor, just blame the CURRENT administration! They fill up people with empty delusions of entitlement. Instead of being pro-active and doing somehing about the corrupt system they just pass the buck.

Local government has no place anymore as well. When something's wrong in your barangay or city don't complain to your barangay chairman or your mayor call the president of the country!. They say the president is the problem and should be replaced. People always fail to understand that the replacement will always be a politician; and there is no guarantee that he or she will do a better job.

At the rate Filipinos are thinking, the next generation's future looks bleak. I hope my daughter's peers will be people who can think for themselves and who are pro-active and self aware.

Putang Ina! gusto niyong palitan mga politiko eh politiko rin ipapalit; eh pare pareho naman karamihan sa mga yan. Ang pag babago nag sisimula sa sarili hindi sa gobyerno!

My daughter has really high fever and my girlfriend is confined in the hospital, they got seriously ill several days back on the same day. I'm joggling my time and finances between my daughter, my girlfriend, my job, and the people in our household. My expenses are sky rocketing, I'm so stressed and tired...

Though I have a sense of accomplishment; all my efforts of trying to be a better person is paying off today. I am able to provide for my family in such a critical time, not only financially but emotionally and psychologically. This siege will only serve to make me stronger and wiser.

I now have a better understanding of the phrase certain people say: "you'll do anything for your family". Other things never seemed so insignificant right now, in contrast to my family.

My girlfriend went home 2 days ago along with our daughter so I have my room all to myself again. It's been several years since I had my room to myself and I find it a good change. I can hear myself think again and ruminate on important things in my life which I have been doing for the past 2 days... So much so that I barely went out, only to go to the bathroom and pay for my takeout food ^^.

Lately I've been loosing motivation in working out, I've been working out in my room for more than 3 years now and I have plateaued in terms of muscle growth and strength gains. I've done a bit of reading on super sets and found videos on youtube by scooby1961 which were very informative and helpful. Basically he makes videos on how to workout at home using minimum equipment which was exactly what I was looking for. I tried out the chest super set he suggested (push ups to dumbbell flys to dumbbell presses), and I must say I've never worked out my chest so hard since I started working out which got me really excited again. Now I have a renewed motivation towards working out which I am really thankful for since body building has been such a positive driving force for me.

My job has become monotonous and mundane though it pays the bills. Yes people get discontented from time to time I think it's natural. But I decided to just put on my "workface" at specific hours in a day and make as much money with the least amount of effort as reasonably possible so I can enjoy the other things in life that give me happiness. Everyone has to deal with the monotony of everyday city life I am no exception, bottom line is to just separate the sections of my life and keep my eye on the prize. Whether it be body building, earning money, designing or what not.

Lastly I've pondered on how I deal with my temper and found that there is still a lot of room for improvement. I still have to learn to balance controlling my angst and releasing it through the right outlets e.g. working out, eating, confronting the parties involved. Though I've improved a lot especially when it comes to my daughter (I used to have little to no patience for children), thankfully when my daughter came into my life I've managed to turn it around just in time.

I have learned the subtle art of being passive and controlling my anger, but in this case I can't help to let loose a bit of my steam. There are times that even if you do your part to the best of your capabilities and try to be submissive (my term for obedient in this case), and loyal you still get a bum deal. I would want to type in a slur of derogatory terms to the point of satisfaction but it won't dissipate my angst. The only option I have is to cut my losses and take it like a man and just shut the fuck up.

I am just stupefied by the depths of stupidity and insensitivity of people at times; much so that it makes me ruminate on the future of human society. A heavy sand bag would be really handy right now.

I've categorized jobs into 2 general categories: the smart jobs and hard jobs. The smart jobs are those high paying jobs which are relatively easy to acquire though without job security and don't last very long, while the hard jobs are the average paying jobs with job security and stability. Both have their pros and cons and in rare occasions you get a little bit of both (high paying job with stability). Smart jobs are great for impatient people like me who want to earn big and fast, though the obvious drawback is that it is a big gamble since there is no job security. Hard jobs do have an advantage in the long run, but in most cases by the time you become financially successful, you'd be too old, too busy or both to actually enjoy the fruits of your labor.

I've been a freelancer since I started working way back in high school. I'm a lazy person who tries to work smarter rather than harder. One of my mottoes in life is "earn money with the least amount of effort or capital." I guess it's in my nature, given that I tend to be a very impatient person. Up until now I only saw the positive side of my choice in employment. But when I lost one of my clients for more than 2 years yesterday, I got a crude reality check. Trends are changing faster than they previously did and life in general is getting harder by the day. If I fail to take things more seriously, I risk having to have really bad long term financial problems down the road.

My goal is to save enough money to get my own place and start up a small business to sustain my standard of living. And I plan to do this in the shortest time possible since the money we earn only depreciates by the day. By the time I make my first Million (Pesos,) it would amount to much compared in recent years. Saving money in the bank used to be good practice, but now a days it doesn't seem to be so. Your money hardly earns any interest, prices of commodities keep sky rocketing and the purchasing power of money keeps dropping.

I just hope before my bubble bursts I would have saved an ample sum of money to achieve my goals. If or when I get my own place and business, it'll be yet another uphill battle from there. But at least I'll have a place I can call my home both figuratively and literally.

First up I wanna greet all the faja's out there a Happy Father's Day! This will be my first, and I must say, the role of being a dad hasn't actually sinked in yet even though my kid is more than a year old already. I guess being a dad is really something. I'm glad I had a chance to be one.

On the home front I updated michelle recently. Now I literally have a small black box! I decided to go with the following specs after my old setup miraculously died on me without notice.

Shuttle Prima SP35P2 PRO Intel Q6600 G0 stepping (old) 2x1gb Corsair XMS DDR2 800 (old) Sapphire 3870 Toxic Edition Auzen X-Fi Prelude Western Digital Raptor X Saitek Eclipse keyboard (red)

Well, I am content with my computer's performance. I'll just be changing my processor to a Q9450 when the price drops and maybe a new pair of speakers. I'm on the verge of getting myself a Logitech Z5500. Hopefully I can acquire 'em within the month.

I also change the look of my windows shell into something lighter on the eyes. I decided to install Windowblinds 6 and Iconpackager to update the shell and its icons. I used to use the Vista BricoPack but I found it too buggy when it comes to rendering the effects and widgets. The thing I like the most about my current shell is the wallpaper - I find the portrait of the girl to be really pretty and inspiring - in more ways than one ^^

Finally, I updated the designs of both themes on the site, and fixed some minor bugs I found in my code. I haven't had time to post much less update my site in the past few weeks so I'm happy I had the chance to do so this time around.

I accidentally stumbled upon a small inconvenience yet again as a web designer; as you can see my current design uses a flash movie under <div> elements. Normally the flash content will be on top regardless of the stacking order in your code or via z-index. It turns out setting your flash movie's window mode ("wmode") to transparent will fix the issue (only in a perfect world). Sadly this doesn't work on firefox on linux platforms, based on my reading the wmode attribute is still not supported on linux/firefox.

I've read somewhere that google was able to pull this off by inserting an <iframe> right under your <div> width the same dimensions and using a little javascript hack. Long story short the iframe must have a display property set to none at first, then set back to block once the page has loaded. I implemented this on my current layout and it seems to work. To test this you can visit browsercam.com, they offer a free trial to take screenshots of websites under different platforms/borwsers.