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Since my daughter was born, I had made more enemies than I ever had in my entire life, in the past 3 weeks. Most of them are either my relatives or the mother's relatives, which was what I expected. It just becomes tiresome hearing the same gripes over and over. They say I am selfish for putting the interests of my daughter before theirs, and they have the nerve to threaten me!?

I see them as back seat drivers, all talk, but when worse comes to worst they're just sitting at the back and the driver is left with all the responsibility. I can't say that all my choices are correct, but they are decisions spawned for the best interests of my daughter. I would rather deal with the consequences of my decisions rather than doing so with other people's so called suggestions.

Sometimes a part of me just wants to give way, but in order to move forward for my daughter I have to stand up for my beliefs with conviction. I know I'll bump into more people in the future, but this is part of parenthood, I guess. I try to keep an open mind and just take in the lessons of fatherhood as each day passes by. At the moment there's not much I can do with relatives poking their noses into my business since I am still under someone else's roof; but I hope to change that in the very near future. I do hope lady luck is by my side on this one.

It also sucks that I don't have anyone to talk to about these things, parenthood I mean. I don't have good "role-model material" parent to ask tips from, nor do I have any friends, siblings or relatives with good parenting skills in my age bracket. Most of them, if not all, are all talk without any real parenting experience. Thankfully I can just type away on my journal and talk to myself and think things over. The only down side is it's hard to find an objective antagonist in these conversations. For the most part, all I hear is a rambling protagonist, haha!