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Just had the routine weekly checkup of my significant other, and I must say I'm starting to get worried. We decided on changing her attending OBGYNE since I lacked faith in her skills. I talked to the new OB this afternoon. I was relieved and scared at the same time. Relieved to find out that she was thorough and concise. She took the time to explain all the important matters, and answered our questions intently. Also, I liked her demeanor; and scared as she told us about the possible complications that could occur during and after the pregnancy. It's really annoying, since I can't stop worrying about what ifs, and what nots. I guess this is an integral part of the parenting experience.

Finances are starting to be more of an issue... as if it hasn't been already. I'm worried about not being able to provide. The stress is also getting to me. An eyesore of mine at the moment is my significant other's family. They blatantly say that they are unable to help but ironically focus their resources on her sister, who has no pressing issues at the moment, except for a planned fucking vacation. It doesn't mean that though I am able to shoulder the finances that I should. It should be an even division of labor so to speak. The way I see, it is that they are under minding the pregnancy, being complacent because someone else can pick up the tab. It doesn't end there. Instead of contributing to the solution, they're giving me more problems. It just reinforces my disbelief in marriage and matrimony.

I am willing to deal with all the bullshit around me, as long as my kid comes into this world as normal as everybody else; and can have a normal life.