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As much as I want to live a simple life, circumstance dictates otherwise. I prefer to take the simple route, the nearest distance between point a and point b. Some acquaintances say it's the journey not the destination, but what fulfillment will I derive from a journey when my destination is uncertain. I feel I am becoming part of the stigma of money being a motivating factor in life. Lately it's the sole thing that's been keeping me from doing my job. I had a chat with an officemate of mine last week about a new mobile, and what she told me hit too close to home... no.juan: i said meet me at 4pm galleria later today True enough, a few minutes after I bought the mobile I ended up were I started, still looking for something, which I just can't put my finger on. Yes, I currently live a mundane and fickle life. I'm currently looking for inspiration, trying to keep my head above the water so to speak. It's been hard lately especially living with a pregnant woman, and soon to be replacement by an infant. It's a steep learning curve but it teaches me valuable lessons for things to come. Though it's not doing my self-esteem much good. Personally I feel smothered with all the things around me and just wanna get out; unfortunately that is not a viable option at the moment. Being as optimistic as i am, I find other outlets for depression, material things don't seem to cut, nor does sex and companionship. I guess this is when you get one of those big ideas that are few and far in between. They say when you're at the bottom there's no where else to go but up. i am hoping sooo badly that that saying will be true for me. |
