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I attended this party of my bosses, it was their joint birthday party. I wasn't planning on going but a friend of mine decided to go last minute so i decided to push through. It was a good thing BJ went with me, since I barely knew the people in attendance and I don't have a connection with my officemates who were there either, since I'm home based. I was hoping to talk to a friend/office-mate of mine hoping to patch things up; surprisingly both my bosses forgot to invite her and none of my officemates in attendance didn't know her mobile which kinda bummed me out.

It was kinda dragging at first, if it weren't for the free beer i would've gone home early; but fortunately a few of our friends showed up which I haven't seen in several years. The conversations were entertaining to say the least. It was nice to to know that most of us haven't changed, including some of our bad traits.

Personally I think i said to much last night, especially to my boss/friend. Though it were mere jokes I think I was talking out of my ass for half of the time. I guess i was letting off some steam, which I did at the wrong place and time.

I suck at keeping good relationships; i talk way too much for my own good. That's why this year i wanna be more aware of the relationships i make and already have. I also have to accept the fact that being superficial is part of a social life, and having a social life is a key in succeeding in this society we live in. Though I'd like to think that I'd rather be honest to the people I respect, enough to risk losing the relationship I have with them in exchange for the truth.

I respect the people who treat me accordingly, and tomorrow I'll be meeting one of those people. This is one of the steps I wanna make towards personal growth. If I want a happy life, I should start with being happy and the rest will eventually follow... i guess.

On a personal note, I'd rather have a couple of friends over a bunch of acquaintances; I'd be fortunate to have atleast 3 of them by my side.