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I had an interesting new year, I celebrated with close family relatives like we always do, but this time around we had a much more dynamic conversation compared to previous years. The older generation reminisced their past and told stories of their success and true to life rags to riches stories. I knew that our family was poor but I only had a real idea of how poor we were until last night. I have a new appreciation for the things and amenities I have in my life right now.

I learned a lot in the few hours we talked, mainly focused on financial stability, ethics and personal growth. A lot of things are uncertain 'till now but one thing I am certain of is that I am aware of my flaws and short comings and I can focus on them this year.

Financially speaking; I am expecting a very challenging year; though not as daunting as relationships. I have a hard time building fruitful relationships with people which perhaps, stem from my lack of faith in the innate goodness in people; Cynicism has been a big part of me for too long. My Grandmother/God Parent ask me a while a go, "How do you plan to support yourself and your kid?"; With no stable income and a handicap I answered "I'll try to start up a business". This is my only option if I want to support myself and my kid among other things. Easier said than done, but unfortunately I have no choice in the matter ^^. At the moment I live without any financial burden thanks to my generous financier, but not for long since the old generation is a couple of years from retirement and it is our turn to take over the reigns of our lives.

To sum it up, I had one of the best new year celebrations I could ask for, it was informative, the food was superb and the fireworks were gorgeous. I am looking forward to a fruitful year, with more responsibilities and much more satisfaction. I want to be inspired, and if there's one lesson I learned dearly in 2006 it's that it's my choice to be and no one else's.