I'm tired of so many things, and I've done away about caring for most of the trivial things in my life. Life is to short about worrying my ass of about things I have no control over... thing like

• what people think of you (relatives and/or peers) - people are entitled to their own opinion, it would be futile so sway them otherwise.
• social conformity - it's just a euphemism for hypocrisy
• financial stability - will always depend on how one handles the constant onslaught of brainwashing by mass media... Less is definitely not more in their world.
• family ties - I'd like to believe that family is who you make it with, and not necessarily who you are related to.
• when relatives ask you "how are you doing?" - it's a rhetorical question so why bother answering.

Among other things these are the ones the were on top of my head, needless to say i am a person with a lot of issues, yes this is my small way of conforming with society. Shit happens on a daily basis, sometime more often than desired, and the more time we spend anticipating it the less time we have left for actually living.

Which brings me to the gist of my entry for today... Since i was a kid I really wanted to drive my own car, back then when I had better eye sight I was denied that chance. Now that my vision has deteriorated significantly I have the chance to fulfill that goal. Ironic as it may seem, I still believe I can pull it off, amidst what people around me are saying. I just don't give a shit anymore, I know I am gonna go blind sooner or later, so might as well enjoy all the pleasure I can while I still can.

I can tolerate the nagging, the stupidity, the back-stabbing, the bullshit, the politics,, even odd situations even though how unbecoming they may seem. But i refuse to have a life dictated by terms other than my own.