I got into a conversation with my grand mother over dinner, which got me thinking. The gist of the conversation were: job security, which I don't have, employee benefits which I don't have either, and other things I think I should have but don't. It's no secret that I work in the porn industry, the money is fast and easy, relatively speaking. Though most companies only offer dismal benefits to their employees especially in the industry where I am right now; no unions, security, picket lines or what not. I try my best to save as much as I can for the future; and I know bitching to the people I work for won't do me any good... like I always say I am not paid to think, ...only to follow instructions.

Which brings me to these questions: what is life after the porn industry? How long will this gig go on for me? and will I, have saved enough money and resources when this gig is up?

At the moment I can only speculate, save as much as I can and hope for the best. I just hate the uncertainty of things especially when it involves finances, since I am also thinking of my child's well being. I don't have the luxury of time as well given my handicap.