Before I start ranting about my work related stress, I would like to start off on a positive note. Here's a photo of Yz sitting on my shoulders. she's just 4 and a half months old but she can sit with a little support which is really cool since I get to play with her more often. She is also aware of her surroundings already and knows how to express what she wants. Even though I am with her on a daily basis, I still get amazed by the rate of growth she undergoes on a daily basis. Having a kid is truly a wonderful experience; it's like growing up all over again.

Now on with the show... It's hard to work on something you don't really want to do much less believe in. It is especially more difficult to work under such circumstances under people whom you do not respect in or out of the work place. But life isn't all fun and games where we can get away with what we want. For the most part we're dealt with what we least expect. Personally I would want to get out of the rat race I call the I.T. industry in the Philippines; and look for other means of income. But I don't have that luxury anymore since I have my kid to think of now.

The question before me is what do I have planned for myself in the long run? Obviously my current gig is just a temporary solution to a life long problem. I am trying to make the most of a bad situation by saving money from my wages. Yes the money is good, minus the security and comfort of actually liking your job. I would prefer an ample wage doing something stable which I actually believe in, as to working my ass off for a high paying job at the cost of my sanity and values.

I'd prefer to enter into cottage industries or similar businesses which are simple and straight forward. They don't pay much but it would be a much more stable source of income compared to what I have going on now. My goals in life are simple, a decent home, eat 3 full meals a day and grow old happy. I can do without the fancy cars, big houses, elaborate vacations and what not. I believe it's who and not what one has in life.

Simple as it may seem, it is also idealistic in todays world to want much less acquire such a life. But I am reluctant to give up, I just wish life would throw me a freaking bone; like an idea of sorts.

Either way I need to come up with something in the very near future. I have my doubts on the longevity of my current job, aside from that I also want to do something long term, like a food business, or anything to do with commodities.