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Hola mina san!! sashiburi ne!? Just coming out of my slump and to cap everything I just got a bad case of flu a few days back with a matching sore throat. Well, I am still under that depressing state but I'm getting out of it bit by bit. It just can't be helped. There are times that it becomes unavoidable and you just immerse yourself in it and just let it ride. Maybe in the future I'll look into taking anti-depressants or something, since my episodes keep progressing each time.

Anyway, I got my new 32 inch LCD display, which is cool. As great as it is to have a huge display, it does little for my eyes. It made reading easier but my eyes still become sore, and they still hurt just like before. So I guess it's futile to think I can make a serious career out of computers in the long run. I'm trying to think of other ways to earn a living yet again. Though it's kinda hard to be serious about anything when you're depressed.

I also tried looking for a new hobby to keep myself busy but I ended up getting a gaming console which is still related to computers, which totally defeats the purpose of me getting a new hobby. So I have to look for a new one, something not related to computers... maybe something that can help me improve on my communication skills. But let's face it my options are kinda limited as it is.

Amidst my efforts I am barely making any progress lately which is already depressing in itself. I wish that fact would cancel itself with the other fact that I am chronically depressed, like in math, were double negatives becomes a positive.

With that said, I guess I'll end it here and grab something for lunch. I wanna get well and get back to working out. Maybe working out a good sweat for a couple of hours each day may help me get back on track.