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From my 2km start last week, I was able to do 7km last sunday of straight jogging at a meager 8min/km pace. Not bad considering that I just started to train last week, unfortunately I'm forced to cut down on training even though I want to run due to knee pains.Both my knees are sore after running even just after 3km which really sucks! It's not that painful but my concern is that if I keep on running through the pain I may mess up my knees which in turn wont make me run period.

I'm hoping that it is nothing serious, maybe my body hasn't finished adjusting to the new stresses I'm putting on it. So I'll be resting for 2 days and I plan to use knee wraps on my next run. If I get better results then I guess I'll train through the pain and get stronger leg muscles and practice the correct running form and biometrics of running.

That being said I won't be able to join the Unicef run this coming sunday which I was planning on joining. I plan to run a whole marathon and I wont get there unless I'm 100%, so I'll refrain from pushing myself this time.

I'm been hooked on runing since I started last week, it's like I'd like to run everyday (if my body lets me). I like hitting that wall when you train and when your muscles start to ache, your lungs gasp for air, and every motion seems to be a bit harder than the last, and you ask yourself will you stop or carry on... It's that mental challenge I crave for, I want to see how far I can go mentally; I know my body can take me to the places I want, the question is am I mentally strong enough to reach it. I've learned alot about myself in the past 2 weeks that I've started running, and I can't wait to learn more about myself when I continue to run in the future.

I have a renewed respect for endurance athletes, particularly at their will to conquer such daunting challenges. For starters imagine running 35+ kilometers under 3 hours (that's like running at a pace of 5minutes per kilometer), and try to think of what kind of determination and mental toughness it would take to do such a thing.

I decided to test myself in distance running. I have no experience in distance running nor have i been jogging on a regular basis, but I thought it was about time that I tried doing so. My current goal is to join, and finish a 10k run.

I started my training several days back, my first try was a dismal 2Km, the pain in my lungs was too much to bare that I was shedding tears on my last lap. My second try was still a dismal 3Km, this time around my lungs were in better shape but my legs gave way to the pain. I'm suppose to jog again this afternoon but I guess I pushed myself a bit too far yesterday, I can barely stand much less walk, It's like being hazed all over again without the bruising.

With the aid of Google Earth I traced my training route in my subdivision. The route is around 1.1Km, the clockwise route is a bit more difficult since it has more steeper slopes which makes it a good route when I try to push my self.

My immediate goal is to run 5 rounds none stop without rest or walking. It may not sound as much but for a novice like my it would mean a milestone. Note to self: 10km may still be a pipe dream at this point in time.

I'm tired of so many things, and I've done away about caring for most of the trivial things in my life. Life is to short about worrying my ass of about things I have no control over... thing like

• what people think of you (relatives and/or peers) - people are entitled to their own opinion, it would be futile so sway them otherwise.
• social conformity - it's just a euphemism for hypocrisy
• financial stability - will always depend on how one handles the constant onslaught of brainwashing by mass media... Less is definitely not more in their world.
• family ties - I'd like to believe that family is who you make it with, and not necessarily who you are related to.
• when relatives ask you "how are you doing?" - it's a rhetorical question so why bother answering.

Among other things these are the ones the were on top of my head, needless to say i am a person with a lot of issues, yes this is my small way of conforming with society. Shit happens on a daily basis, sometime more often than desired, and the more time we spend anticipating it the less time we have left for actually living.

Which brings me to the gist of my entry for today... Since i was a kid I really wanted to drive my own car, back then when I had better eye sight I was denied that chance. Now that my vision has deteriorated significantly I have the chance to fulfill that goal. Ironic as it may seem, I still believe I can pull it off, amidst what people around me are saying. I just don't give a shit anymore, I know I am gonna go blind sooner or later, so might as well enjoy all the pleasure I can while I still can.

I can tolerate the nagging, the stupidity, the back-stabbing, the bullshit, the politics,, even odd situations even though how unbecoming they may seem. But i refuse to have a life dictated by terms other than my own.

I got an email from the Philippine Web Awards saying I'm one of the semi finalist in this years awards. I'm flattered that I got this far and I hope go on winning it again this year. I won the 10th Philippine Web Awards last year in the Personal category; I entered my site in the same category this year.

Congratulations to the other Semi Finalist who made it this far! Let's hope that we have a scandal free awards ceremony this time around ^^v

Above is my CPU-Z validation screen shot, I'ts been several years since I last over-clocked my CPU, last time I did this I was using a Pentium 3 box running windows 98. Unfortunately this is the highest stable OC i can get out of my hardware. I was gunning for atleast a 1hz increase... guess not.

I'm in the middle of building a new computer, hopefully this one will last me for atleast 2-5 years. I really need to move on to other things in life besides computers.

When will the next Friendster or Youtube come along? When will CSS3 see the light of day, or better yet when will IE6 be wiped off the face of the world wide web?

I guess I'm not the only one experiencing lack of good ideas in the recent months. It's a comforting fact at times the misery loves company, but it's not healthy staying in a slump for a prolonged period of time. I want to be inspired both artistically and intellectually and move on to the next chapter.

Which brings me to the gist of my query... what is the next big thing on the internet? If you have any ideas do share...

Just transferred servers last week, I had to update the site a bit since the new host doesn't support ForceType or SetHandler and other similar directives. No wthat's done and over with I'll be changing my code base to put this into consideration for future projects.

Been developing several different sites lately but one that has peaked my interest is fedhz.com. It's the first site that I've done to check out how to earn via blogging. It's fun because I get to learn new SEO techniques, know what new trends are on the net and stuff like that.

I am also about to finish the site of Mara Nepomuceno, a friend of a friend who happens to be an artist. It was a fun project since it opened my eyes to new design concepts for the web, it laso veered me away from my traditional style of designing which was getting way too old.

Also finished making Project Management System for a company that request privacy so I am not at liberty to disclose details. Regardless it was nice to get paid while honing and up dating my php skills.

Aside from work and being a dad that's what has been keeping me away from my very own site. I do hope to get more projects before the year ends. I look forward to learning new stuff before I totally revamp my own website... So untill next time folks!

When I was a kid around 10 I think, my grand mother had a plastic poster on the door of her room with a pastel blue background and black/red text... I think the font was in Arial or Times Roman or something similar. The poster only had 2 lines:

Rule #1 The boss is ALWAYS right.
Rule #2 If the boss is wrong read rule #1.

This got planted into my subconscious thanks to my mother who always told me that in society this is common practice. Her teachings were of conflict since we were brought up to stand by our convictions, yet there she was basically telling me to fold and just kiss ass.

At present I understand the dynamics of her words back then: why we should kiss ass from time to time. But I still can't comprehend the rising necessity for it. Personally I think it's only to feed the ego more than anything else and is a feeble attempt at gaining self confidence... but only in a perfect world, yeah I know.

Long story short, I'm at my wits end with this bullshit we call conformity. Sacrificing convictions, beliefs, values only to further ones standing in certain circles of society. What pisses me off more is that this is more prevalent in our culture, Filipinos dislike confrontation nor are frank. It may sound to be of a subtle nature but for me I call it hypocrisy.

Shit! if it weren't for my happy place I might have lost my sanity years ago. I also take comfort in the thought that is all else fails there's always prozac.